One Word After Another.

Stephanie

June 1

I'm here.

I understand the entire point of me being here is to experience, explore, and be so curious about what is happening around, and what it inspires within, me.

I got a perfect new pen and it is beautiful. It is the type of small gift to myself that changes my entire experience.

I love that the way forward is to fill books upon books with my writing. I feel resistant because I doubt my intellectual abilities, but then I remember that the act of writing sentences true to me, my inner experience, is what I'm here for.

I was inspired by a FB post that held a fragment of quote attributed to Ernest Hemmingway. In this "Seven Tips for Writing" graphic, number one hit me like a train and succinctly summed up what I am here to do. "1- To get started, write one true sentence." Maybe he wrote it exactly like that, maybe he didn't (I'm aware of the reputability of this source)- but the idea brought tears to my eyes and rendered the next six steps unnecessary.

One perfect word after another after another. One true sentence after another after another.

I trust that there is so much more to this life experience of mine coming, but it all starts with writing one true sentence. It starts with filling notebooks with writing from pens that are perfection incarnate. It starts with feeling deeply within myself for the small, silent, achy emotions that bring me to tears. Then sitting quietly and curiously with those emotions. And then, finally, telling the stories they implore me to tell. I'm not here to write the same academic boredom I was raised to write on.

The full spectrum of humanity from the highest highs to the lowest lows is within me. That is what I'm meant to fill pages with.

My handwriting is blissfully free-flowing when I feel deeply. My emotions- the energy in motion within me- also flow, change, and eventually resolve when I show up.

This is a conduit-connection to the entire universe outside of my physical body by exploring the reservoir within me.

It all starts with one perfect word to build one true sentence.