Journalling is one of my favourite self-development activities and one I highly recommend to anybody seeking insight from within, but it can reveal painful memories from your past. In my case, it brought back memories I had pushed to the back of my mind for decades.
I've had issues with feelings of inferiority and confidence for as long as I can remember. To address this, I decided to see if I could find the root cause. I asked, "Are my issues my own, or were they implanted in my mind by my environment?" I found that it is a mixture of both, but unpleasant memories played a large part in these feelings.
I'll need to address the memories that have haunted me to the extent I bottled them up. The events happened in my teenage years, but reliving them brought back feelings of anger and hurt I buried. I am still feeling the emotional pain three days after writing that journal entry.
Those memories reminded me of times when I felt unfairly left out by school "friends". The more I wrote, the more I realised I've only had a few good friends. Everyone else was around because they could get something from me, we had mutual friends, or they only cared for me when I was single. Of course, this revelation has left me feeling grateful for those friends in my life.
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