I Don't Stop

Jen and the Furries

Jun 25

What's your favorite thing about yourself?

The Terminator is back.

I've started referring to my mother as a terminator because she will not stop coming for me. If someone blocked me, refused my mail, changed their number, and talked about me the way I have her, I'd damn sure leave them alone. But not her. This time she sent a request to connect on LinkedIn.

Maybe you think I'm overreacting. Maybe you were aghast to read my prior post where I said I look forward to reading her obituary, but it's the only way that I will ever know for sure she is no longer stalking me (The term "stalking" means engaging in a course of conduct directed at a specific person that would cause a reasonable person to fear for his or her safety or the safety of others or suffer substantial emotional distress.) I write about her stalking me to create a public record for my protection because fe people take my concerns seriously. To them I'm just another Karen stirring up shit.

Which brings me to that thing I like most about me. I don't stop either. I'm not cowering in fear. I'm not cutting and running or letting her back in my life because it's easier. I am Sarah Connor, living my life, knowing full well the risks I face in doing so. I'm also prepared. Underestimate me to your detriment.

I learned this week Little Girl likely has lymphoma. I say likely because a definitive diagnosis comes only after invasive testing that neither my vet nor I felt she should be subjected to. So there's a course of treatment to see how she responds, and we'll take things as they go. The good news is her bloodwork looked good with no abnormalities, which means treatment may keep her going awhile. But you never know. June Buggie had bloodwork just before he died that showed he was doing ok too. Even cats' blood is sneaky.

I'm back to work this weekend earning money to pay these vet bills. Good thing I'm feeling better. Last Tuesday I tried to mow and about blacked out. By Friday I felt well enough to get the job done.

So let me get going. I need to get a shower and get to work. My Little Girl needs me to be strong for her. And I will be.